Zamas-Journey

I honestly believe in creating your own happiness, creating your own goals in life. You are the only person who knows what makes you happy, what makes you unhappy. You are the only person who can wake up and change the state of your mindset.

The question I should be asking you right now is this, what are you doing about your life? Are you happy? Are you fulfilled? What makes you smile?

What I have learned in life is that you are the only person that has the key to open all the doors that brings joy in your heart and life, Yes we don’t ask for bad things to happen to us, but we are responsible in solving them, This (bad luck/ bad thing) that has happened to us, Any decision we make has consequences, you can decide to be a victim and cry for days and months and don’t solve the problem and wait for people to sympathize with you or you take action by finding solutions towards that problem and really own it and claim your life back . Truth be told we are all going through something that we actually don’t like and wish it could go away but surprisingly it not going anywhere, it needs our time and attention.

We only have one life, we need to decide if we want to create a bunch of beautiful flowers and nature it, water it till it blossom accordingly. The friends we have, The jobs we have, the relationships we are currently in, it was our choices. Whether they bring joy or sadness towards our life it was our choices and decisions that landed us in that situation.

Don’t be scared to make life changing decision about your health, your career, your relationship, your goals, etc. always trust your guts, always take calculative risks, life is about taking chances and risks. Life is about experiences and fault, Have something to talk about, own your mistake and mostly learn from them. Explore the world the best way you can. Create your own rules, be yourself the world needs you.

So on Sunday I had to be in Northern Cape, this was a work trip. I landed in Port Elizabeth airport which was not an ideal airport to land in because of the distance, we drove 4 hours to reach our destination.

Road trip is nice if you will stop and take pictures and enjoy the drive if you like driving so in my case I love long distance drives but it must be during the day, when the sun is out, so I can fell safe since I am not familiar with the place,my safety comes first.

personally I love small towns because I get to enjoy the peace that it comes with. Well this is the airport we landed on, you will never get lost , very accommodating but I wish we could have landed in Kimberly airport because the drive from there to Richmond it only 3 hours.

Okay this is Richmond town, very small town, very clean. I don’t know weather should I call it a village? I am quiet unsure about it, well in this town I have realized that the unemployment rate is very high, it a town that I would prefer to go and just have a “Me time” maybe I want to clear my head just for one night,it quite, there is no vibe or busy streets with cars, music nope.

It would be an ideal place to rest if you are doing a road trip maybe you are coming from Johannesburg to Cape-town you may pop by sleep and go on the following day.

This is Richmond community Church, I actually love their building, it welcoming, it beautiful. I like a community that has a church building to accommodate those who believe in going to church , who believe that God exist, to accommodate human being that really need to find themselves in a safe place called church, I loved that.

The power of reading guys, when I saw this small library I was so excited because I am a believer that every community needs to have a library, we need to educate our kids the power of reading and writing, be able to spend their time at the library. Yes I know there is no need for some of us to go to the library because of technology has made our life easier, Yes for some but not all of us can afford digital or are up to date with 3rd industrial and innovation.

It a small building / house that they turned into a library I actually love it. As much as the town don’t have so many things or it not that developed but I felt like it has the basics that the community need. It will allow that one child who believe in reading books, who has a passion on getting new information, that child will be able to use this facility to benefit herself/ himself. Knowledge is power, no one can force you to read a book or to find something new it needs to come within you.

This is the cute restaurant/ small boutique that offers breakfast, lunch and dinner.

Okay inside it a cute coffee shop that I went to get myself a cup of cappuccino because I am a lover for coffee, it was reasonable and the cappuccino was very nice.

Inside they sell different products, small bags ( your sling bags) body lotions, your snacks like ( peanuts ) your home mats , this is a very good idea, because I was there for coffee but while I was waiting I got to look around their small boutique and you could find yourself buying something extra. If you love bags you can get one for yourself, or you love your home so much, you get a chance to buy their unique mats. They didn’t have to build a new store for their boutique, I love how they think, sometimes you need to think out of the box so you can generate more profit in one building.

This is my experience on Richmond town. I am not sure if I would ever come for a proper vacation with my friends/ loved ones. I don’t know if I would be able to enjoy maybe 2night. One night for me is more then enough. It not a busy town, it a chilled very chilled town.

Crime rate I believe it very low, I felt safe, people on the road are walking with no fear what so ever, I was walking around with my cellphone.

I hope the town get to be developed so the unemployment rate can decrease , I hope the community see the need for change and development because they have kids growing in their town that could benefit in that development.

Accepting that you are hurting it a step to a healing process, it a step to self discovery, it a step of accepting that you are not weak, it a step of allowing your body, your heart to feel the pain, it a step to allow the healing process to take over. A journey that is not easy to start because it comes with so many mixed emotions that you might not like and comes with the facts that you need to accept about yourself.

We all have been hurt in a different ways in our life, we have been disappointed. We have done things that we are not proud of, life is like that. No one can tell you how to heal, no one has a right to tell you that your pain is smaller then theirs, No one has a right to say at-least your pain is better then what has happened to me.

Let me tell you about myself, I used to think that my problems where smaller, I never used to talk about my pain/ feelings and I still struggle today to do that because I thought there are people who have real problems then me, I used to think that I am being a brats, I am being ungrateful to God if I cry and say I am not okay or complained about my situation. Little did I know how wrong I was, I was so wrong , all I did was to hurt and destroy myself not even realizing it.

Accept the pain and also learning from that pain, emotional pain, physical pain, talk to someone that won’t judge you, find someone that you trust to talk too. Vent as must as you need too and accept the feedback that resonate with you, understand that you are not perfect, you will never be perfect. Accept that it has happened, do some self evaluation, what role you have played in that situation that leaded to this pain. Don’t rush yourself into healing, cry if you have too.

No one can tell you how to heal, no one can say how long it may take you to heal because it a process that teach us to be very patient with ourselves, to be kind to ourselves, to love ourselves better. It a beautiful process I believe. One day, you wake up very energized and you want to discover something new about your character and fulfill it but other days you wake up feeling very demotivated , you feel like a failure , you feel like the whole world is against you, you feel helpless. You don’t want to go out and have fun because you think/ feel like everybody can see how hurt you are, you think your problems are exposed to the world. The truth of the matter no is that one knows how you feel besides you. Until you are ready to tell them how you feel.

If I knew in an early age the importance of talking about my feelings without fear maybe I would have turned out being even a better person then I am now, but none the less, I am here now, I am learning, I am evolving, it a journey.

No one has it together, we are all hurting in different ways, we are all in a process of healing and accepting ourselves as we are. Lacking self confidence , having trust issues , being tired emotionally, wanting to cry because you are tired of paying bills alone, being fed up. You are allowed to feel it, accept it and please work on it. Take it one step at the time, take it easy, don’t rush yourself life is not a race, it meant to be enjoyed with it disappointments.

Let me tell you about East London. This is one of the town that I love in Eastern Cape. It such a beautiful town, it friendly , it has the beach my favorite place/ space to be maybe that why I relate to this town. It one of those town you visit and you feel the need to eat home made food, for me I would eat Samp or eat steam bread because it feel right to eat it, it welcomes you to a place called home, especially when you came in on a Sunday for your work trip or vacation visit it would be a great meal to start your week with I promise you.

I love a friendly town that allows you to be yourself, that allows you to enjoy your stay and be able to reflects towards yourself. I found that in this town. I love the beach so much, I love nature it makes me see God’s presence and that he exist in my life so I have to go to the beach just to find myself, to listen to the water sounds, waves, just to see how creative is God. So I made sure I went to the beach just to relax, to calm my mind down, just to be still. On that beautiful journey I was able to capture some beautiful pictures that resonated with me and I found sign that I was looking for.

Waves, Stones and the sounds of the water speak volumes in my world, it gives me peace of mind, it heals me, when I look at the water moving , flowing up and down for me it just a sign that everything moves, everything flows, everything comes and go but the stones are still there weather the waves come though as heavy or calm but the stones remain especially the strong ones, the small stones yes they might shift but they won’t be totally shifted.

Every situation you find yourself into doesn’t mean it won’t pass, every situation that you face will pass, it like seasons. We have summer , spring , winter and autumn. Not all of us love all the four seasons, you would find that you love summer because you get to go to the beach and wear your favorite bikini and enjoy yourself with your loved ones. This doesn’t mean winter won’t come, weather you like it or not it will come and you shall be ready and be prepared to wear warm cloths because it will be cold, you might get sick because it a change of season you must do things differently in this winter season in order for you to pull through it, change the approach, change the attitude.

Life is like that, our life’s are like that, they are just seasons, embrace the season you are facing, learn from it, it there because you need to learn from it, do not personal it, it not the end of you, it just the beginning of a new chapter in a novel that you will love to read about it one day.

Each province you visit or each town you visit make sure you capture a good moment, make sure you do something you love, so I captured this beautiful picture. Look this picture for me it everything. I was able to capture whites birds and that for me is a sign of good-luck, Yeap I’ve said it good luck.

I felt like this was God saying, “girl I see you and I am here”, I was so lucky to be able to catch them at same time while flying, this for me was a sign that the sky is the limit. So in my heart I am having a conversation with God, I’m like wow thank you dad and he is responding to me his like ” My dear child fly like a bird, trust me, trust the process, I am here, I will catch you if you fall”.

This picture resonate with me. It heals me, it makes me happy. So when you take a time out make sure you capture each and every moment! you will never know what a picture can do to your heart when you most need it. Do the things that makes you happy, they don’t have to be big. Starts small but make sure you enjoy it. Embrace all the seasons in your life, they are there for a reason. Each province I visit or town I visit I make sure I mark something about it. I learn something out of that trip, I make sure that I enjoy because it was not by luck that I was there but it was meant to be that why I was there at that moment.

Nothing happens by chance in our life, it the timing that is right, Trust the process and Gods timing.

The walk to success comes with lot of fear, The walk to freedom comes with trust for me. I believe that fear has to relate more on trust as well. Why do I say that ? I honestly believe that one has accumulated so much fear in their life because there was a trust that has been broken, trust that lacked caused one to fear so much, caused one to have anxiety.

I believe that trust is earned, you cannot go around and asking people to trust you or to put their trust in your lap. This is the thing about trust and fear. You need to understand that once a person say I trust you that means they put their hope, faith in your lap now that you will always be there, you will always have their back each time they feel left out, each time they feel unloved, feel scared. You promised to hold their hands and you will be able to walk the journey with them. You are basically promising them that you won’t drop the ball of trust in your hands, You promise that you won’t just stand up and leave because their trust on your lap.

I always associate trust with a glass. Once a person mistakenly breaks the glass it very difficult to be put in together and be the same smooth shape of a glass. It might go back being a glass but it has scars now, that will always be a reminder of what has happened, that has caused Fear. To over-come fear takes a lot of time, takes a lot of energy , takes patience, needs dedication because one can’t wake up and say I no longer fear and I trust again.

I always associate fear and trust like a beautiful flower vase that you put in your lounge that decorate your home, that makes your home look so bright and beautiful. Just imagine that vase been broken into small pieces and someone says to you ” no dear I will fix it for you, so you can be able to use it again and display it again on your lounge and put your gorgeous roses”.I doubt you would want to agree to such because your vase will no longer look the same.

When you have broken someone trusts just know how deep it has gone, the scars are very deep, just know that you have introduced fear in their journey, in order for you to amend your mistake just be patient with them, it will take time and energy to rebuild it again. Just think of these broken glasses, it not easy to put back each and every little piece together and think it will fit in perfectly.

If there is one thing that truly destroy us as human being is having self doubt. I can’t express enough how it can destroy your dreams and goals. I edge you today to please start trusting your self, start loving your self enough to talk some positivity towards your own life.

Self doubt is dangerous in a point that you even starting seeing things that don’t exist in your own body, you will see how you are not perfect for certain jobs, how imperfect you are that you can’t even date a certain guy because you don’t meet their standards. Like really No. Stop it honey.

I have once struggle with self doubt and I still do even today, but you know what I’ve learned that there won’t be anyone like me besides me and these great opportunity I keep on pushing away and I tell myself I don’t deserve them, they will stop to pass by and then what? They will never be a right time for anything when an opportunity present itself at that time, that means it your time, don’t say you are not ready! You will never be really.

You are Enough and you are ready as it is, Trust me.

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A very good morning my readers, Today it a new day that comes with so much hope, it a new days that will allow us to re-start, re-organise, it a brand new day that will give you more opportunities if only you believe in them and in yourself most importantly.

When you wake up and go to work, I wish you strength and I want to tell you that you must always choose yourself, choose your feelings , work is a place where you need to find happiness, joy as well, I am not saying you need to relax when you are at work but can you imagine being in a place where you are not valued , In a place where you are just replaceable. An organisation must treat you well in terms of your right,they must be fair towards you, you are an asset in the company that you are working for but as soon as it start to feel like you are not being yourself, as soon as you lose yourself in the process, do know that it time to exit.

A place that is full of love and happiness the environment will allow you to blossom, that environment will bring the best in you, that space will allow you to grow, you become very creative if you are placed in a space where it surrounded by fresh air and positivity. Stop allowing people to mistreat you just because you scared to lose your job, I am not saying be rude, but I am saying be able to stand up for yourself and for what yours, No one must mistreat you because they know you are in need of a job. I am saying Please love yourself enough to be able to see what you deserve especially at work because that where you spend most of your time and energy that you will never get back.

Anything that you feed your brain it will become the master of performing it right, If you constantly tell your brain that you are not good enough, you don’t have what it takes to get a new job probably that what will happen my darling , you won’t even have the courage to start doing anything, But as soon as you allow your brain and mind to try something new that where you will blossom and you will know your worth. Stop being negative. Stop self talking yourself out of good decision, they are all yours.

This morning please grab your cup of coffee and enjoy it, what a morning without a cup of coffee that will brighten your day, that will give you energy to re-start again , forget about what happened yesterday it didn’t come to destroy you, it came to make you stronger so you can be much wiser. They will never attack you if they don’t feel treated by you, they will never attack you if you don’t see the fire of growth in your eyes, you are destiney for big and better. Battle up the road ahead still has lot of potholes and gravel road. Happy Wednesday.

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welcome to my home page…. I am excited to start this journey with you as my readers. I have been promising myself that I will start writing but I kept on postponing and making excuses.

Today I woke up not feeling so great, I was kinda depressed/ feeling sad and I told my heart and sole that girl, you will get this page up and running. Now look it up because you are reading it, so I started. I gave in for myself especially.

All I can say to you is that just start whatever you want to do, open that business, just start. The errors and perfection will meet you along the way.