Yes I know, it has been forever… I haven’t been here in my love space, in my space of comfort…. in an uncomfortable world. I have finally found the courage to put my thought together and here I am. I am accomplishing my 1st step to be here.
On a lite note, I hope you are ready for the year, I hope you are aware that this year will end very soon.. by the time you raise your eyebrows trying to look up it will be December and you haven’t started what you needed to start, you haven’t accomplished that task. Yes I know it won’t be easy, it won’t be nice. It will be full of self-doubt and only ideas that just end up being an idea.
When I look back to 2019 and the last trip I took to Zimbabwe, it was very fulfilling, a lot of introspection was done.
I took a solo vacation on purpose, ideally I wanted to experience some loneliness towards my life and to just understand how does it feel like to be lonely. I needed some time out. I needed to be in an uncomfortable position so I would understand myself better.
The vacation started on the 28th December till the 3rd of January 2020. I had a time of my life, I loved each and every bit of what happened on that trip. I meet strangers who become my friends. I meet strangers that I needed to trust because my life depended on them and my survival depended on them towards the whole trip.
So many loopholes that I needed to fill on that trip, self love, my confidence, challenging my thought and how I responded to some of the things that were happening there.
The aim was to find myself on that trip, I didn’t miss anything…. I was complete being alone in a foreign country for those 5 days full. Some days I would be so exhausted because of the activities that I was doing and partying day in and out.I thought I was going to feel lonely but I didn’t instead my heart was full.
I will unpack each and every photo on my next blog, because each photo tells a story, each photo means so much to me, I learned, I laughed, I explored and mostly I unlearned some habits I had.
Was I not scared to do this alone? Sweetie I was so scared, I remember on the 27th December telling my heart that we don’t need this trip, let me save my money and do something else that I needed the most in my life, like running takkies or get myself a running license / Join a running club. I remember wanting to cry because I was so scared of the unknown and It was indeed of the unknown because all the bad thought I had none of them were true, instead it was pure joy and laughter trip.
I meet amazing people, I made friends who I still talk too till this day and I can feel it in my heart that it a genuine friendship and I love it.
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