Being angry and bitter doesn’t happen overnight. It takes times and it builds up. You think it will pass but it doesn’t actually pass. You see the smallest issues but you don’t really address them. Those small issues that you ignored and you thought will go away… Well, they really did not go away because here we are addressing them. Here we are talking about them.
The saddest part is these feelings gnaw and nobody else. You don’t want to be a bad friend, a bad sister or the odd one out because you want to maintain a sense of “coolness”. The problem with always maintaining your “cool” is that it doesn’t always work in your favor. You end up neglecting your feelings because you want to maintain a friendship, relationship and good standing with family at cost.
The question you should be asking yourself is: Is it worth it? You never know how much hurt you have to endure until you reach your breaking point. It’s immeasurable until you reach it. Do we even know what our actual breaking point is? When is the line drawn, and when do we whip out the “Big fat No” and really mean it but also not feel bad about it.
Most people walk around pretending as if they have boundaries when they don’t. They seem to have the capacity to take… and take… and take. Don’t you think your load will be heavy? At some point, that load will need to be offloaded?
Most people don’t get that far in their thinking because they are too busy playing Mother Theresa or being a martyr. You never want to disappoint people; you don’t want to say exactly how you feel because other people’s feelings seemingly matter more. Says who and in who’s world?One thing about life is that it a journey and no one knows exactly how it should be done. I am yet to find somebody who claims to have the formula. You might think you’re on the right path, but the universe directs you different.
Breaking point happens when you no longer can pinpoint anything that makes you happy, when you can’t even remember what were your goals were or are in life were. The years pass and cant even identify any growth because you forgot yourself in the process.
Breaking through and not breaking point, happens when you start to introspect. Look within, your failures, achievement and dreams before you become a world saver, before you become a shoulder to cry on for each and every living human being that is surrounding you.
What I have learned in life thus far is that you need to know what matters the most to you. You need to take care of yourself, you need to be very gentle with yourself and know that before anything or anybody; Self come first.
Find your inner voice, find a place that allows you to think and be creative, find a place that makes you connect with your inner peace. That to me is a Breakthrough.
I wish you all clearer vision, better decision making and compassion to self. Forgive yourself of your past mistakes and always know that you can’t change your past but the future as endless possibilities.
#doingitformysoul #changeisneccesary #embracelife.
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